Cat nap

Oh bugger the ironing, I just took one look at it and my legs bowed. So I went to bed instead. I had a lovely nap. 3 hours later I realised that him indoors was due home and I didnt want to get caught in the act!



The twat was early! oh well I had 5 injections in my mouth to remove the old bridge and knowing his fear of dentists, when he looked pissed off at the fact I had obviously just rolled out of bed, I went into graphic detail of my trip to the butchers (dentist) and he soon shut his trap as he went a rather dull grey colour!

Nice one!

Doctor, Dentist & Shrink

It's official, I am depressed!
I even got a sick note and pills to prove it! one month off it states, oh dear, what on earth will I do for a whole month?
Chill out!
I have to see a shrink next Wednesday and specifically asked for a man and ended up with some posh sounding woman ringing me today to arrange an appointment with her.
I dont like her already!
Mind you I dont like many people at the moment. Hey Ho.

Him indoors never ceases to amaze me, just when I think it really is all over between us, he starts to be nice.
A nice meal out Saturday, Chocolates and wine on Sunday, a nice note this morning saying he has noticed I havent been right lately and hopes I feel better soon. Then a text this morning simply saying, I Love You.

Oh I am sure if he carries this on I will feel better in no time!

I have been to the dentist today as I wanted my bridge renewed. Well the enamel fell off the other one so I looked like that guy from james bond with the metal teeth!
Well I pay £24 a month dental plan and everytime I laugh I have to cover my mouth as I am really aware of it.
The dentist informs me that as I have the top plan then that will cover the cost of doing the bridge, just not the Lab fees. Ok, I says not a problem, I still want to go ahead no matter what the cost. About £250 she informs me!! Is it made of bloody gold? For God's sake!!

Well what could I say? Go ahead, I want nice teeth!

Right I must tackle the ironing mountain that has taken over my utility room. So much for chilling out!

Breakdown?

I CANT STOP CRYING!

Why?

I dunno!

I have a nice home, a brand new car that him indoors bought me, I go out regularly, I have a good family, fantastic friends, even him indoors has been nice to me! No money worries, a good job, great kids, I holiday abroad twice a year, so what on earth is wrong with me?

I have been sinking lower and lower these last few days and now I don't even want to go to work.

I just cant face sick people or dead people when I feel like this.

I rang work in tears and my mum had to take over the call as I just was not making any sense.

I now have been referred by occupational health to a councillor, I have already spent an hour on the phone with one and have to see a councillor face to face in the next few days.

The councillor seems to think there is a lot of work to be done, which seems scary. They are having a field day over me as my parents split up when I was 7 with my mum going to visit her sister in Holland on a one way ticket my dad gave her, by the time she managed to get back into the country my dad had moved in his fancy piece and her illegitimate son, which it later turns out is my dad's son anyway!

My mum could not get her 4 kids back as the house was in my dad's name and he claimed my mum left the marital home etc. In those days it was much more difficult for her to win us back as the man was deemed the boss and possession is 9 tenths of the law apparently!

So is it true that some of how I am feeling could possibly be due to my childhood?

My dad used to beat my mum and although I would never stand for that in a relationship, I still have put up with controlling men all my life!

Now I would have deemed myself reasonably normal, I did say reasonably! But I suppose when I think back over the 39 years of my life I guess I have had to go through quite a lot.

Being abused by a family friend at the age of 6,

Losing a decent mother figure at the age of 7, and being replaced with a witch!

My first husband became obsessed with me, he bugged my telephone calls and had hidden cameras about the house. I would have to produce till receipts to prove I had been to Tesco instead of shagging in a lay-by! etc

And now I am with this controlling man, who has been married 5 times already, and has a drink problem!

What on earth am I doing?

The councillor says I will always be attracted to control freaks, it stems from my dad, controlling my mother allegedly! So now the plan is not to ditch my man but for me to change??? now this is going to be interesting!

Things are looking up!

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What a gay day!

The puppies are all sold yippee!

Well I was begining to worry as I had 2 little boy puppies left and no-one had rang for several days. Then as if a fairy waved her magic wand 2 fella's from London pitched up to view the babies.

The first one was a drop dead gorgeous George Michael look a like, the other a very much shorter version of the late Freddie Mercury.

They proceeded to coo over the little boys (Digger & Scooter) and then explained they had several other specimens to view including a sausage dog (????), I told them they were welcome to come back for another look, and over-heard one of them saying about having both puppies!

Come on you beauties!!

I mentioned that if they were interested in the pair I would happily knock £100 off as I would be over-joyed that they would be staying together.

They thanked me, and went off saying they would be in touch soon.

5 minutes later Freddie minced back up my garden path and asked could he take some pics as that would help them with their decision.

No problem love, you can have a picture of my puppies but I am not sure it will get you too far!

Then approximately 8 minutes later George sashayed up to the door clutching £100 saying they would be delighted to have both puppies and would be back monday morning to collect them.

What a result!

So me and him indoors that must be obeyed went to bingo with the deposit money and won £470.

What a gay day!!

Cheeky Monkey?

My 12 year old has come home from school quite upset as he is in big trouble because he called a dark skinned individual a monkey, because she cracked him with a badminton racket, now when I was teasing him the other day he called me a cheeky monkey, I also have a tan having just come back from tenerife!

Does that make him a racist?

My God I hope not!

Surely it's just kids being kids? Do these authority figures take this political correctness too far?

Well bring the fuckers on, I am not a racist and have brought my children up to respect other people no matter where they come from! If they are going to punish him for name calling then I will have her punished for assault!

Then there were 2!

Only 2 puppies left from a litter of 8!

Which means, much less dog poo, not so much dog food to buy, my purse is getting fatter (a bit like my arse), & not so many bundles of joy getting under my feet etc

I kinda miss them though, but as Sid has had the snip now, we wont be having any more.

I am still off work as I still have a dicky tummy, I should be a size 10 with the amount thats slid down the pan, but somehow it isnt working like that! Bugger!

I couldnt even eat my dinner last night!

Now that is bad!